Let me just start by saying ‘thank you’ for all of your love and support. I’ve received so many comments and messages and it seems cliché, but “thank you” just doesn’t seem like enough. Everyone has been so incredibly sweet and y’all have stuck with me through this whole journey and it means so much. I’m truly thankful!
Let’s Talk Idol
Okay, so let’s talk Idol. First, can I just say how glad I am that it’s all over! Not because it wasn’t an amazing experience, because it totally was! But this has been going on for MONTHS and now that I’m no longer on the show, it feels like a weight has been lifted. No more trying to keep the outcome secret and no more wondering if I’m going to get a feature. (I’m not.)
My very first audition in Dallas was last August, I left Hollywood Week in January and then couldn’t tell anyone that I had even auditioned for American Idol until the premiere in March. That’s a LONG time to have something consume your life and not be able to talk about it.
Hollywood Week was without a doubt, the BEST “Worst Week of My Life”. It is mentally and physically exhausting and I’m not sure how anyone makes it through. There’s no sleeping, very little eating and a TON of singing. You’re sharing a room (and for some of us, a bed) with someone you’ve never met. You become BFFs with people you can hardly talk to because none of you have a voice left. And some of us were competing with 15 year olds who are bright-eyed and bushy-tailed because as minors, they are required to have mandatory breaks to eat, sleep and be kids!
I say all of that to say, I will never regret auditioning for American Idol. The entire audition process completely changed me, and for that, I will forever be grateful. Idol landed in my lap at the absolute perfect time. Not only when I needed it most, but also when I could handle it most.
If this had happened 2 years ago, I wouldn’t have been ready. I wouldn’t have felt like I could leave the day-to-day of Kidd’s Kids in anyone else’s hands. Music was so far in the back of my mind, I don’t know that I could’ve found it. And mentally, I just wasn’t in the right headspace to allow something like American Idol to happen.
American Idol and Hollywood Week not only helped me rediscover my love of music, it led me to define my musical voice. When Luke Bryan tells you that you should move to Nashville, pop music probably shouldn’t be your music genre. Going through the auditions also restored my musical confidence. Out of 300,000 people who auditioned for American Idol, I made it to the top 73! How crazy is that? I also met some amazingly talented people and walked away with some great friendships. From the first audition to being cut in Hollywood Week … it was all a gift.
God Has A Plan
I am a strong believer that when God wants something to happen for you, he gives you the provisions for you to make it happen. I wasn’t supposed to win American Idol. God gave me this experience and I took everything I was supposed to learn from it. And now that I’m on the other side, He is continuing to order my steps and I intend to follow every one of them!
So, what’s next? Well, for one, I’m working on an album! An album that is totally mine. I’m not at the mercy of a record company or contract where I have to be someone I’m not. I have total creative control and don’t have to mold myself to fit into someone else’s box.
In the past couple of months, I’ve been collaborating with Ryan Cabrera, I recorded a music video, and I have some live performances coming up. This is absolutely the silver lining!
If you want to hear more behind-the-scenes- detail, join my new Facebook Group Page and catch the Live I did after last night’s show. I’ll be doing more Lives and keeping everyone up to date with my upcoming projects.
So, stay tuned! There are so many things going on and I can’t wait to share them with y’all!